Life is so funny. Reading back on my old blogs I confessed my undying love for one guy, and a heartbreak over another. But throughout it all, I never remember feeling like this.

I believe everybody comes into your life for a reason. And with every person, you make a decision, either you chose to let them continue to be in your life, or you don't.

Would I be a different person if I never went to the bar that night and ran into Eric again? What if my parents moved to the other side of town and I went to a different high school? Maybe. Would I be a different person if I put a little bit more effort into the various casual relationships I've had throughout the years? What if one turned into a relationship? Would I be a different person? What if I put my heart on the line continuously? Would I be a more closed off, negative person? Who knows..

It's funny how one person can change who you are. It is the experiences, the emotions, the laughter, and the stories. It is what you learn from that person through their wisdom or through life lessons.

I like who I am now. I feel like I have enough experience in a relationship to understand how to make it work. I feel like I've been hurt enough, more than enough, to appreciate something good whenever it comes along. I am not naive. I understand the world. I've lived on my own for five years. I've learned to cook for myself and to take care of myself. I've learned to budget my money and how to spend it wisely.

I've learned that when you find something good, you hold on to it.

What I have yet to learn is how to let go. Maybe this life experience will show me the way to let go. As I said, everything happens for a reason. This is just another lesson to learn.