It's amazing how much has happened in 25 short years. I feel like I'm just getting started, but I've made it over the first couple of really big hills. I have accomplished a lot for somebody my age, and I consider myself lucky to be able to list those accomplishments. I recognize that what I have done is not a small feat, but instead, they are check marks on a bigger list that not many people have the opportunity to do.
It is scary to turn 25, and I have to admit that I am sitting here crying as I write this. But I can't decide if these tears are upset, scared or happy tears - maybe a mix of all three.
I told myself that I never want to regret anything, and maybe regret isn't the right word, but at this moment I can't think of anything that fits. I regret not enjoying everything. I feel like I rushed through life to get to that "check mark" and I missed the plot. I rushed through high school to get out of my parents place, I rushed through University to get to Grad school so I could tell people that I have a University degree and am in Grad school. I rushed through Grad school because I was tired of being broke and wanted to do something real. I rushed through my Internship because I thought I was better than being "the intern" and I wanted to prove myself. Now I've rushed through my first year of real world work, and what do I have to show? Just a lot of rushed experiences, a couple pieces of very expensive paper and I still have the attitude that I'm better than this.
So now that I can officially call myself older and wiser than the younger me (because I'm no longer in my early twenties), I'm going to make a vow to myself. I vow to push myself every day to be better than I am. I vow to stop and enjoy life every day. I vow to be nicer to myself and to others. I vow to not take life so seriously.
So, in order to make myself feel a bit better, here is a list of everything I've accomplished in 25 short years:
- I have been a very good big sister and helped to raise two excellent little brothers
- I have helped my parents reach their dream of running a successful business
- I have made one life long friend
- I have graduated from Elementary School and High school on time
- I have earned a University Degree
- I have earned a Post-Secondary Certificate in the field that I chose
- I have made a name for myself in my community doing something I love
- I have been there for many friends when they needed me
- I have bought my first car
- I have taken a vacation for myself
- I have adopted and taken care of a wonderful dog
- I have lived by myself
- I have been responsible for myself financially
- I have fallen in love, and had my heart broken more than once
- I have taken many chances
I vow to not let these times get away from me. Life is a journey and I'm excited to see where it takes me.
