It's all for the best, isn't that how it always goes.
Was stuck in a never ending circle and I got out.
I'm stronger than I was yesterday, but not as strong as tomorrow.
Strong enough to say enough.
I can't deal with the ups and downs. It shouldn't be this hard.
Trust is a delecate thing. It can't be earned back if the cycle continues.
Love is faithfulness, kindness, respect and truthfulness. That is what love is.
Love does not exist without those four factors.
As painful as it is, to give myself a shot at happiness, I must move on.
One day this will all be one lovely dream.
And I quote: "With this pain in my chest, I still wish you the best"
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
Its been a while since I posted, and to be honest, I didn't miss it. It wasn't until somebody asked me about my blog that I went, Oh, right!
A lot has changed in my life and I'm fighting to stay positive each and every day. One of the major milestones is that I need to seek help from an impartial, outside source in order to deal with my insecurities and trust issues. I don't think that I'm any less of a person because of it. It isn't my fault I have these problems - I've been a victim in situations that have damaged me. I never asked for it. And I know I will never be able to be fully healthy without conquering these demons. you go to a doctor if you're body is broken, you go to a dentist if your teeth are broken and you go to a councilor if your mind is broken.
I'm trying to have no expectations of this experience, however, I do hope that the councilor will be nice and understanding, as well as non-judgemental. I have dealt with enough judgement due to my decisions by my friends and family. I just want peace and harmony and I know this starts within me.
Another major milestone is that I've decided that I only want people around me who support me 100%. My life has been full of ups and downs in the past couple of years and I've weeded out some people who were not really on my side. I have no problem shutting that door if I feel it is necessary.
I guess that is all for now. Sometimes things need to get worse before they can get better. Growing pains I suppose.
A lot has changed in my life and I'm fighting to stay positive each and every day. One of the major milestones is that I need to seek help from an impartial, outside source in order to deal with my insecurities and trust issues. I don't think that I'm any less of a person because of it. It isn't my fault I have these problems - I've been a victim in situations that have damaged me. I never asked for it. And I know I will never be able to be fully healthy without conquering these demons. you go to a doctor if you're body is broken, you go to a dentist if your teeth are broken and you go to a councilor if your mind is broken.
I'm trying to have no expectations of this experience, however, I do hope that the councilor will be nice and understanding, as well as non-judgemental. I have dealt with enough judgement due to my decisions by my friends and family. I just want peace and harmony and I know this starts within me.
Another major milestone is that I've decided that I only want people around me who support me 100%. My life has been full of ups and downs in the past couple of years and I've weeded out some people who were not really on my side. I have no problem shutting that door if I feel it is necessary.
I guess that is all for now. Sometimes things need to get worse before they can get better. Growing pains I suppose.
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