These are a few of my Favourite Places

Everybody has "their spot". That one place on earth where the feel so comfortable. That place where they can sit staring out over whatever it is, thinking about whatever is bothering them and know that everything at that exact moment is as it should be. Fortunately for me, I have 2 places like that. The first place is on the boardwalk in Port Elgin. By day this place is full of families playing on the beach, or as you can see, jumping off the break wall. Those lucky kids in that picture are my brothers and my cousin Jenny.
As soon as the sun starts to set, the sweaters come on and the lovers come out. Port Elgin has the most beautiful sunset. A couple years ago it was even in the Guiness Book of World Records for it's Sunset. This picture is of my brother this past summer. Everywhere you look, you can see couples holding hands walking around admiring the beauty. All of this is great, but my favorite part about the break wall is going out at sunset, sitting on a massive rock, watching the sun go down and watching the stars come out. The break wall is practicallydeserted after sunset, and it is the most serene place. You can hear the waves crashing up against the rocks, and you get the occasional spray of water on your face. On the clearest nights, you can see stars that seem to go on forever.

I have done the deepest soul searching out on those rocks. I've decided what I want to do with my life, what kind of man I want to be with, and I have even day dreamt about how my life is going to turn out. I have also had the most intimate conversations out there. I've talked to my cousins about their upcoming weddings, my brothers about life in general and basically anything that needs to be said. It is a safe place, a place where nobody can touch you. What happens and what is said out on the rocks stays out on the rocks.
The second spot is also on a beach, but the beach in Barrie. Many nights in the summer have been spent down there walking a dog, or rollerblading with a friend. I remember one night last summer where I went down there with a friend right after my ball game, cleats and all, and walked for an hour just talking about life. There is something for everybody there. A playground for the children during the day, and the teenagers at night. Art work surrounding the beaches, such as the piece in the picture to the right. There is a beach, gardens, a marina, and lifeguard chairs (which are so much fun to climb after the bar on a Saturday night).

I've had many firsts on that beach. I've been on a date, seen the sun set over the city on Johnson's beach, and watched the children play at the park and countless picnics.

This past summer was full of downtown adventures on the beach. Mel, Britt and I spent an afternoon there sunbathing and playing Frisbee. And that infamous night when Neil, Britt, Dan and I went down after the bar and for some reason Dan thought it was a good idea to go skinny-dipping. There were also the numerous nights spent on Marks boat just chilling in the marina, and Canada Day fireworks with Andrew, Alana and Britt. So those are my spots. I can't wait to get back to them and get centered again. Maybe this weekend I'll go for a walk when I'm home.

Boys: The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly.

I saw you in a crowded room, people were everywhere, but I saw your face. My stomach jumped as I walked by, but you didn't notice. I sighed and kept on walking. As the night went on, the room got busier and everyone got drunker; I stopped looking for you. I went to my favorite bar tender and you were standing right there watching me. The butterflies came. You gave me a huge smile and said my name while spreading your arms wide for a hug. I walked over and buried my head in your chest while I felt your massive arms wrap around my body squeezing me tight. I serene feeling engulfed me as I breathed deeply, inhaling your cologne. Your arms loosened and I lifted my head. Our eyes locked and I started to turn red. You said something, I can't quite recall. I asked how things were, how life was treating you. You gave some answer, it didn't really matter. All that mattered was that I was standing in front of you, our hands intertwined. I looked to the right and there stood a beautiful woman. Your girlfriend I assume. You never introduced us. You noticed me looking and let go of my hand. I made up an excuse and left you standing behind me.

3 drinks later I saw you on the dance floor with her. I smiled as I walked by but you grabbed my arm to stop me and pulled me close to you and started to move to the beat. We danced together, so close together. I spun around behind you and put my arms around your waste. We grinded together perfectly down to the floor and came up. We owned that dance floor. You grabbed my hand and spun me around, and that is when I noticed her again, watching me silently. I smiled at you and said I had to find my friends and I left you standing behind me again.
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You called me drunk said you were in town for the night and wanted to see me. I said you could come over to catch up. We laid in my bed with all the lights on just talking. You told me about your new girlfriend and I told you about my lack of good prospects. I told you about school, and my future plans, we laughed together and enjoyed each others company. We finally reconnected after months and months of neglect. You gave me the most amazing back massage and then you left.

The next day I got a message saying that you went home early because you had to tell your girlfriend what happened. You said you felt so guilty and you drove home right away. I called you completely confused and worried asking what happened. You said you felt guilty for spending time with me and for giving me a massage. I realized at that point that I had lost a good friend. If you felt guilty about hanging out with me, we can never be friends. If she's the one, she's worth giving up a great friendship. I just pray to God that she is the one you marry.
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Every girl knows this type; I just never thought it would be you. So sweet and caring you appeared. Every girl loved you as a friend, the perfect boyfriend I was told. We kissed that first night, deep and passionate. I melted into your arms and thought that we would spend forever like this. The next day you treated me as a stranger. Only talking to me when you had to. A couple weeks later I found myself in the same situation, molded into your body interlocked in a kiss that threatened to engulf me whole if I allowed it. I stopped you that night; I didn't want anything else to happen, fearing what happened before. I was right. The same damn thing happened. A stranger in your eyes.

A couple months later it happened again. This time I let it go too far. You got what you wanted and then you were done with me. Only talking to me when it was necessary, dropping your head when we passed in the hall way. Shying away from any physical contact. I never thought it would be you. Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde type character. You don't acknowledge what happened, only focusing on the present. You don't know what you've done to me. Questioning every guy’s intentions. I thought you were the real deal, I was wrong. Apparently when it comes to me, every male has no intention of creating a long lasting bond. And I am left here alone again.

So instead of studying I started to do these fun little quizzes, look what I found out about myself!

You Are 64% Abnormal

You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul.

You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

You're a Wild Drunk

You can get enough drink. Seriously, you'll just go puke and start pounding them back again!


Your Outrageous Name is:

Contance Lee Kraps


Your 2005 Song Is

by Weezer"My automobile is a piece of crap My fashion sense is a little whackAnd my friends are just as screwy as me"You breezed through 2005 in your own funky style!


Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.You should major in:Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language




What Your Underwear Says About You

When you're bad, you're very bad. And when you're good, you're still trouble!You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way.


You Have Your PhD in Men

You understand men almost better than anyone.You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well.Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.

Why is it that you can always get what you want, but never what you need? Something always seems so distant, like no matter what I do, I'll never have what will make me whole. If it's that perfect guy, the perfect job, the lost connection with a good friend... You really can never have it all.

"Fix You"

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...Lights will guide you homeAnd ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you