I want to be surprised.

I don't feel like I'm important enough for somebody to make a fuss over. Yet I still have these dreams of being ambushed with a weekend away or some extremely personal gift for my birthday that would make people jealous and make me smile every day.

I can't say I want to be surprised because then somebody would feel the need to surprise me. I want to be surprised because somebody waned to see the look on my face when they showed up, or when I walked in the room or anything like that. Surprises are so much better when they come out of nowhere.