I don't like change. I like regularity, I like a schedule. I like making plans. I find something comforting in normalcy.

I am a creature of habit.

This personality trait will be great when I'm older and more established. For now, it is my worst enemy. Nothing in my life is solid. Everything is trying to go with the flow. It is the unknown that scares me, and the unknown is all I know. I'm terrified.

Some people thrive on flying by the seat of their pants, some people crash and burn. I'm on fire.

Life is like a stack of domino's, as soon as one thing falls into place, they all fall into place. I just need that initial push aka a job offer. Job offer comes salary, which determines rent, which also depends on location of job. Once rent and location of job is determined then I can find an apartment, organize moving dates and time, find help to move and get my life in order. God Damn somebody give me a push!