Will this work? I don't know.

The distance hurts. I'm stuck here, he's stubborn and won't move. It's all on my shoulders to make the move but how do I know when I give up my life here, change jobs, find an apartment there, move to a city where I have no friends anymore... how do I know that it will be better? If thus far is any indication as to how the rest of our relationship will be, I'd be the biggest idiot in the world to move there.

He's busy every night. Any chance he has to integrate his friends with me, he doesn't. So how do I know that I'm not going to be saved for the midnight bootie calls and one night a week dates. It would be practically the same. So whats the point in giving up my life for a bad relationship?

This is not how a relationship should be. I should not put up with being called a Bitch, and being told to Fuck Off when I get angry with his fuck ups. Obviously he hates me, why else would somebody be so mean. So whats the point? He hates me, I'm angry with him. We're both just being toxic to each other. Maybe this is just the end.

I just don't have the fight in me anymore. I should be respected, not disrespected. I should be loved, not hated. I should feel happy, not sad all the time. I should feel wanted.

I just..... don't know anymore.