Betrayal

With every relationship there is bound to be some betrayal. It's just human nature. Everybody is in it for themselves. It goes against everything everybody stands for to hurt themselves. But what if you body is hurting itself? I'm being betrayed by myself. The only person I've learned to trust has now betrayed me. Like I haven't been through enough this year...

Something is happening and I don't know how to stop it. I feel lethargic, my stomach hurts, I'm bleeding non stop, I have headaches, I've stopped losing weight and I'm more emotionally driven than before. I get angry very quickly, I don't listen when I argue, I cry all the time for no reason.... What the hell is going on?

Is it stress? Maybe. I have been through hell and back in the past couple months. I've questioned everything in my life. I have no safe place. No person to confide in. I feel constantly on edge and alone.

I just want stability. I want to be happy again. I want to feel successful and wanted. I want to feel like there is a purpose to me being here.

I'm scared.