Obsessions.

I don't know if this is normal or not, but I have many obsessions. I don't just like something, I become obsessed with it, person or object. I've come to notice some unconscious actions I ceremoniously take part in ever day. They often encompass everything I do, or are constantly on my mind.

The most obvious, which anybody who has ever encountered me knows very well, is picture taking. I love pictures. I love to have a record of the night’s activities. If the night involves drinking, this is a good way of keeping track of myself throughout the night. I don't leave the house without my camera, except when I go to school. Everybody loves pictures; it is my way of fitting into a new group. Your instantly transported from being so-an-so's friend to that girl with all the pictures and eventually to "Kelly".

I have a slight obsession with certain people. At the moment I am torn between two men. I don't know who to concentrate my efforts on, or even if I should pursue anything. One of those things about lust/love/like is that you never really know where to push or pull away until it's too late. I try to keep control of my emotions and control of the situation, but one of those amazing things about lust/love/like is that you have to relinquish control in order for it to work.

The reasoning behind my obsessions is unknown for me. Possibly it could be the never ending search I am on to be happy, or it could be that what I obsess about actually makes me happy right now?