Don't make it More Difficult.

Life sucks. I don't know how many times I've heard this, too many to make it a reality. In actual fact, life is amazing. I've met so many people who have touched me in many ways. I've seen some of the most amazing sights of the world, well of North America at least. I've traveled through the mountians of Alberta, and of Montana. I've swam in the Atlantic Ocean, watched the sun set in PEI and watched the sun rise over Manhattan.

I have a family who loves me and life-long friends who would do anything for me. What I do lack, is the ability to keep a best friend. When I was a child I had a great friend, Alana. We did everything together. My family even moved to Barrie because her family did. Though we still keep in touch every so often, it's still not as often as I would like. I miss her. She's on an amazing life path, 3rd year at the University of Guelph. Alana, if you ever read this, I'm so proud of you!

Through Highschool I was close with a bunch of girls, but as highschool goes, something stupid would happen and we would "hate eachother forever". Well, Vickie, Christine, Jeralynn, Kira, Caitlin, Krystalle, Ashley and anyone else I might have missed, I'm sorry. And I don't really "hate you forever"..

At the end of highschool I was really close with Krystal. We were enthralled with our new freedoms. She bought herself a car and we were unstoppable! She started College in Barrie and I had decided to go back to highschool to improve my grades for University. We grew apart. She grew up and I was left behind. It's true that one can only grow when given the ability to do so. We had some amazing times together that one summer. And I'll never forget that roadtrip to Wallaceburg. I miss ya chicka, but I hope your following your dream.

Angela, my darling Angel. This girl is the one I miss the most. We were inseperable the summer before I started University. We tried so hard to stay connected throughout the year, and we did. I came home a couple weekends and for the holidays, and everything would be the same. We would chat about what boys we were seeing, well what boys I was seeing and about her boyfriend. We would go out dancing and just have fun. Then the summer came, and other responsibilities tore us apart. I should have been more understanding, I really should have. Ange, I know we've mended everything.. but I miss how we were, how we would just know what eachother was thinking about and would giggle uncontrollably without saying a word. And who else would cruse around screaming Meatloaf with me? "Some nights you don't cum easy, and some nights you don't cum hard, and some nights you don't cum at all.. and these are the nights that never end!!!" hahaha.. only you would get that!

Brittany, this girl rocked my world. She was so energetic and upbeat regardless of what was going on with her. I met some amazing people through her. She made my summer amazing. We did so much together, she saved my ass with my ball team. I hope I helped her just as much as she helped me. When I started back at school things became difficult. You promise that things won't change, but things do change. Britt, if you ever read this, I'm sorry for the way things have worked out. But I hope your happy now, because I know I am. I finally feel like I belong somewhere. I've worked all my life to get to this point, and now that I'm at it, it just feels right. I'm sorry that you can't be here with me to experience this. But just follow your heart.. I know you can do amazing things if you want to.

I hope everybody I mentioned gets to read this, this is my heart. I've mentioned you all for a reason. I loved every one of you at one point in my life. And unfortunatly I think that most of those points have been closed. I hope you can accept this, and you all know my phone number, just pick up the phone and call. I promise I won't bite.