I'm a bad person.
I've been neglecting my blogs like the plague. I guess it's because I feel like I have nothing important to say or to contribute to this world. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, and a lot of soul searching and I've finally come to the conclusion that I'm going to be okay.
There was a time there where I did think I was going to make it. Its over now, I know I'll be okay.

These past couple months have been so weird, akward, and confusing. 3rd year ended, I failed my first course ever, all of my roommates moved out- with the exception of one who is only around until September- new roommates moved in, I didn't get my dream job for the summer, I started a new job and I moved rooms. If thats not enough to push somebody to their breaking point- I don't know what is. I spent a month at home and I was miserable.

But here comes the sunshine. My break down resulted in a new found respect from my parents, an increase in my bank account, the opportunity to visit my cottage for a weekend and a solid sense of self.

Friendships seem to be strengthening and weakening at the same time. I've realized that you don't have to spend every second with somebody in order for them to be your best friend. But you do need to make an effort. I've realized that if somebody stops trying to be your friend, then maybe it's a good thing. The less stress and the less drama in my life, the better off my emotions will be.

And the saying is true. As soon as you let something go, it always comes back to you.