As I am sitting on my ass watching TV in my childhood home, a commercial came on that caught my attention. It wasn't necessarily what the commercial was selling because I wasn't watching it, but what was said.

"As we move through life, we tend to learn something new every day"

I got to thinking about this quote, and what I've learned today is that I need to be wanted to be happy. It is not enough for me to be happy with myself, but I need somebody else to want to have sex with me. Since I am in Barrie, there are a handful of guys who regularly keep in touch with me and are constantly trying to get in my pants whenever I am home. This is annoying, but at the same time it makes me happy to know that I have people waiting for me to come back.
This usually entails many plans made before I even leave waterloo, late night phone calls or text messages once I'm in Barrie, and many men begging for me to come out at 2am. Usually when I come home I'm exhausted. I don't sleep very well in Waterloo, and my house in Barrie is so quiet, I just pass out in my huge fluffy bed. I get really annoyed whenever my sleep is disturbed but at the same time, it's always by a guy who wants to see me. Though I have never gone out that late to meet a guy, they still ask, beg and try to proposition me with sexual favors.
It's fun to think that the guys I messed around with in high school still want me 3 years later. And for the most part, they have all grown up and look so much better than they did before. But for some reason I'm just not into it anymore. Something has changed inside me, and though I love being wanted, I want to settle down. And I think that scares me more than anything in the world. Good Lord, what has my world come to?!?!?