It's something unpredictable...

Life is unpredictable. Just when I thought I had everything balanced, something gets thrown into the loop to make me fall. And fall hard I have. I was doing just fine dealing with school and family and friend issues, and then you came into my life.

I remember seeing your picture and thinking that you were so good looking, there was no way I'd be able to have a decent conversation with you. The first time we met I don't think you noticed me. After that night you added me to MSN. I still don't think we've had a conversation that goes further than "Hey! How are you?" in person. I get so nervous around you...

MSN is my savior. We started talking and didn't stop for hours. I told you things that I haven't told my closest friends. We haven't had a conversation yet that has lasted less than an hour. I feel so comfortable telling you things... just not when you’re in front of me.

Is it good that whenever I see you, you take my breath away? Is it good that I can't stop smiling whenever I think of you? Is it good that just talking to you made my day?

Sometimes I wish that you would just grab me and kiss me. Take all my worries away from me. Sometimes I wonder if you’re just as nervous as I am... Hopefully some day soon I will know. Until then, I am left to wonder.